I notice at this time of year (very specifically this day and the next) I feel like I’m walking through mud. I don’t want to do anything and everything is just really hard to deal with. Last night, I thought I could prevent this dreaded anniversary from coming by staying up practically all night. This isn’t so good when I need to be at work tomorrow at 8am. If I nap too long anytime today, I won’t be able to sleep tonight.
For the last couple of years, I’ve gone down to the restaurant to light a candle. Last year, it was empty because the restaurant had closed. There’s now a bakery there and they are open until 7pm. I don’t even know what to do…I’m sure there will be people closing up and I don’t want anyone to see me. I don’t want to have to wait it out so late because my drive is an hour back home and I’ve got 8am work in the morning.
I think I’m going to end up sending them an email. Good lord, how awkward is that? I sure hate this shit. Tomorrow I’ll be better.
